These past two years have brought very distinct and dramatic positive changes into not only my life but also my self as a person. My convictions and beliefs are stronger, being aware of others and their feelings matter more, forgiving is easier, and how I think of myself and take care of myself has changed for the better. My agenda for each day is more planned out with a purpose for the things I do. As I compare my life six years ago to my life now, it is easy to see that I am in a completely different place in almost every aspect. But don’t get me wrong I still have much need for improvement!
As I continue to learn and grow I can’t help asking myself how did I get here? As I look back I remember that dark and dreary day six and a half years ago when my whole world as I knew it, crumbled. Feelings of failure and life’s unfairness crept in. Unpleasant memories and regrets surfaced. I doubted those things I thought I believed in and in a very real way I lost my desire to survive. As I have pondered why my husband’s passing was so difficult for me I have thought about the structure of my life. I have also wondered if I was simply going through the motion’s of each busy day without having a strong conviction, base or foundation to build on.
I realize now that the support or foundation I had built my decisions, and actions on was obviously a shaky one. I believed in Christ and My Heavenly Father’s plan and I strived to keep the commandments contained in the scriptures but I don’t think that I really knew Christ well enough or trusted Him enough to let Him be that main support for me. Therefore when difficult trials came my way I crumbled.
I can testify that no matter who you are, or what you believe in, that Jesus Christ is a solid foundation we can build on. If we learn of Him and His role as Savior and Redeemer of all mankind and gain a strong conviction to follow him… allowing him to be the base and foundation of all the decisions we make in life, He will bear us up when uncertainty and hardships come. I know He lives. I know of His character and attributes. He loves each one of us. He died for us and resurrected on the third day. He was completely selfless. He is knocking at the door and wants us to let Him in.
I know that as I put my trust in Jesus Christ and have faith in His desire and ability to support me and carry me when necessary, that I will be able to handle any trial that comes without crumbling. This is my testimony to you. The Savior of the world will be that structure and support upon which you can build.
Concrete foundations eventually deteriorate, but Jesus Christ will never fail you!
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